There is so much i need to write about but this is something i am like...in love with. Lol. A couple weeks ago i wasn't even sure what Lolita fashion was but now that i know and i've looked at stuff i am almost obsessed!!! i really like the gothic and punk styles and kinda like some of the other styles too. i have always been a little bit gothic and a little bit of a girly girl too but omg i think i am gonna get myself in trouble with this! Haha.
i can not afford to dress like this really, but maybe i can get a little at a time or find things used. i am also trying to find ways to make stuff by myself so it costs less. i don't know how i'm going to pay for stuff yet but i really really really want to start dressing lolita style. i like it whether i'm feeling little or not and i would love to dress like that every day.
i saved a whole bunch of links and tutorials and things that i put on my sidebar under "Lolita" because i really just love this stuff. i even like just looking at it! Lol. Craziness :))
Monday, August 25, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Quizzes Angel-Punk
What kind of Little are you?
Your Result: Angel
84%
You are Daddy's little Angel!!!!! You do absolutely
everything to please your Daddy and make him happy and his great love for you
reflects your dedication!
66% Princess
34% Brat
16% Schoolgirl
0% Pumpkin
What kind of babygirl are you?
Your Result: Punk 66%
You're spunky and refreshing. You tend to gravitate towards
the eclectic and you pride yourself on being an individual. Daddy loves being
around you because you're unique, and probably a little strange. But that's
okay, Daddy likes strange. You and your Daddy may enjoy going to music shows,
art museums, or spending nights in odd towns together.
54% Happy-go-lucky
40% Sexy
18% Spoiled
16% Princess
Saturday, May 17, 2014
My glass painting
i paint glass and i like to do all sorts of different glass pieces. So far, i have made vases, candle holders, picture frames and salt and pepper shakers and one mirror. Here's a few of them. i'll put more on here later :)
You can't see the yellow in this one, the middle of the flower is yellow and the point on the star is yellow not white.
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
More About Me
As i said in my last post, my name is amby. This is something i just recently discovered, really, or started calling myself, lol :)
For the rest of this post, i decided to use some questions from a group i'm in on fet cause i was having problems thinking of things to say....so...about me:
For the rest of this post, i decided to use some questions from a group i'm in on fet cause i was having problems thinking of things to say....so...about me:
- How did you discover you were a little: see this post - About me, intro
- When was this? about 1999, i think (but was before that, also see other post)
- What ages do you most identify with? 7 to 10...sometimes, maybe 6
- Do you regress or have regression triggers? Yes. my triggers are being stressed or overwhelmed, or...seeing something that the little in me likes - cartoons, dolls (especially porcelian ones!), princess stuff, stuffed animals (stuffies) and different toys. Also if i'm like at a park with swings. i think that's all that starts it but i'm not sure.
- Height and weight: i don't know
- Eye color: hazel Hair: reddish but used to be blonde
- Favorite colors: Purple, blue and pink. Purple is my most favorite!
- Do your friends/family know you're a little? my lifestyle friends on fet knows and Daddy knows (of course) and that's it!!!
- Do you play dress up? No, but i would if i had more stuff to dress up IN
- What would you dress up as? probably Cinderella
- Favorite Cartoon: Cinderella, Scooby Doo, Garfield and Tom and Jerry
- Favorite Movies: Cinderella! lolz...and Jungle Book, Alice in Wonderland, a Fairy Tale, Wizard of Oz and the Care Bears Movie
- What do you struggle with most in this dynamic: Letting Daddy see this side of me, and sometimes - moving from little to slave or incorporating them
- Favorite Candy/snack: skittles, reece's cups, animal crackers (but they gotta be gluten free), juicy juice boxes, applesauce, yogurt, and pudding maybe oh and apple slices
- Favorite activities: coloring, watching cartoons, swimming, swinging at the park, blowing bubbles, playing with blocks and my dolls and stuffies, listening to music, drawing and painting
- Favorite stuffies: my bear and my puppies. Bear is my fave, i always sleep with him, and my puppies are pugs. i named the puppies but i can't remember what i named them!
- Favorite books: Dr. Suess books, Cat in the Hat, Green Eggs and Ham, the Foot Book and other ones by him. Also like Where the Sidewalk Ends by Shell Silverstein, Bernstein Bears, and Disney books
- Favorite Games: Candy Land, Operation, Yatzee and Scrabble
- What makes you feel safe? Daddy and my bear
- Favorite song: A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes, and Zippidy Do-Da
- Things you collect: Stickers and Dum-dum wrappers (to get stuff with)
- When did you decide to just embrace your little side no matter what? When i couldn't help it one day, and didn't get all my chores done on time, and i decided to tell Daddy and he told me it was ok and i should.
- What are your thoughts on that? i've always wanted to, but i've always felt weird about it, like i shouldn't let myself be little - but i can't stop it, it just happens, an now..it's really just another side of me, so i may as well. Also, if Daddy is ok with it that's all that matters to me!
About Me - Intro
As a real brief intro - i'm amby (aka dixiekitten). i am a lifestyle (bdsm) submissive and consentual slave. i am also a little - meaning, that i sometimes regress into being or acting like i'm "little". The writing below is something that i just wrote today and posted on my other blog site (link at top of page). i thought i would just double post it here as kind of an introduction to what this site is all about. i will write more later about the little in me, probably a lot more, but most of what i write here probably will not be quite as "serious sounding" :) As a start though, here's an intro to the little in me:
This is something that i do not think i have ever sat down and written about. i have a little side...meaning, sometimes i don't feel quite my age. It isn't an "age play" thing. i regress. Usually, it will happen on one of a few occasions. If - i am just feeling very safe and comfortable and see something my "little" likes that triggers it, and i know i can go there...and when i am very stressed and/or overwhelmed with things. Most of the time it isn't something i can control well, it just happens.
When it first started, i didn't even know i was doing it. In fact, it happened for several years before i really knew. i'd have missing time, knew something was off but didn't know what, exactly. i think when i'd realize something was going on, i'd shake it off most of the time. i'd be doing dishes and next thing i knew i was standing in the living room and a half hour had passed. That was way back when. i was still with my first Master then. i never could tell him about those strange happenings because i figured if i did he'd lock me up somewhere, lol. Little did i know (no pun intended), he knew a lot more about it then i did, and i was doing that a whole lot more than i knew about. i wasn't remembering. Finally one night when i went into "little mode", he asked me something and i laughed at him...normally...as slave...that would have got me in trouble. That is the first time i remember being "little"...at least, clearly, and i think i have been able to remember since then.
Anyway...i asked him about it the next day because he'd said some things to imply that it definitely was not the first time that had happened. i asked what he meant and how long i'd been doing that for. Several years...at that point. my next question was why he'd never brought it up. Apparently, he thought i was remembering at least some of it and just not wanting to talk about it - i wasn't. Also, that it was never a problem so he didn't worry about it and figured when i was ready i'd talk to him about it. Well...right then, it was a problem for me...talk about feeling insane...
i don't know what i did when i'd go into my episodes. He could tell me, but i never asked and not sure i ever will. At the time, i didn't want to know. i started remembering when i'd feel little, but for a long time - when i'd pull out of it, i'd push it aside. i didn't want to deal with it or face it.
Now, however i am trying to. i was seeing a counselor. i talked to her about it. She said she thought that maybe it started out as just a coping thing and may have initially been related to things in my childhood and my initial slave training (very knowledgeable in bdsm...awesome counselor), but that now it is kinda integrated into me more. She said she doesn't think i'm crazy.
Master, or should i say Daddy for this, lol...my current that is..tells me i shouldn't fight it but should embrace it. He doesn't think i'm crazy either and has been supportive. At least, disregarding right now, which i'll get to in a minute. i think i'm crazy still...but...i am trying to accept it, deal with it, let it in when i need to because this has been going on now for what? oh...about 18 years or so...here and there...and is getting more pronounced. It is, as my counselor said, really a part of me now and fighting it is about pointless.
Daddy had me coloring or reading, or doing something "little" before i went to bed to try and help me understand and accept my little side. When W/we started having problems some months back, i stopped doing that. i am trying to get back to it now though because it was helping a lot, and he'd probably still want me to though...
In the last few weeks, he hasn't been able to be there for me. It may be like that for a while. The slave in me alone is having a hard time with that. The little in me, even more so, i think.
Typically, i really only regress once in a while. It may be once a week, once every two weeks, once in a month...but for the last week..it's been almost daily, and so much so that it's interfering with things i need to do. i can't talk to Daddy right now and it's killing me, but i am trying to be strong and have decided that this is something i have got to tackle and deal with.
i've been in some little's groups on fet for a good while now, and that helps too, but i feel like i have to watch it on there because i worry that i'll embarrass him or something. That, and well...when i am really in "little mode", i don't go to fet. i play and watch cartoons, and draw and stuff :)
Back to my problem though - usually, once i do something my "little" likes, i will snap out of it and i'm back to just being "me". Saturday was horrible though, it was almost all day. Yesterday - about the same. So, i have decided that i am going to feed the little in me a little more and see if it helps any. What "she" really wants, and what i really want is Daddy, but...i have to try to do as best i can on my own right now and be strong.
i got some ideas from the little's groups to help with self exploration. Things like scrap booking, making pictures, doing crafts, etc, writing stories, or writing about things i like (as a little). i think i am going to start doing more of those things, and i've created another blog that i'm going to use as kind of an online scrapbook. Also, in one of the groups we are going to start doing some projects that i've joined in on, where you have to post pictures of things you do. And...i guess due to my shyness and other things mentioned above...i'd rather have somewhere besides fet to post those things.
i'll put the link here (nothing on it yet though), but if you run across this and visit me there...just please be nice as this is really something i still struggle with. Oh...by the way...my "little's" name is amby, and she's usually around 7. Again...this isn't age play...just me acting like a kid sometimes. amby is not into all that "grown up" stuff...just to um...be clear ;)
Anyway....... http://lildixiekitten.blogspot.com
This is something that i do not think i have ever sat down and written about. i have a little side...meaning, sometimes i don't feel quite my age. It isn't an "age play" thing. i regress. Usually, it will happen on one of a few occasions. If - i am just feeling very safe and comfortable and see something my "little" likes that triggers it, and i know i can go there...and when i am very stressed and/or overwhelmed with things. Most of the time it isn't something i can control well, it just happens.
When it first started, i didn't even know i was doing it. In fact, it happened for several years before i really knew. i'd have missing time, knew something was off but didn't know what, exactly. i think when i'd realize something was going on, i'd shake it off most of the time. i'd be doing dishes and next thing i knew i was standing in the living room and a half hour had passed. That was way back when. i was still with my first Master then. i never could tell him about those strange happenings because i figured if i did he'd lock me up somewhere, lol. Little did i know (no pun intended), he knew a lot more about it then i did, and i was doing that a whole lot more than i knew about. i wasn't remembering. Finally one night when i went into "little mode", he asked me something and i laughed at him...normally...as slave...that would have got me in trouble. That is the first time i remember being "little"...at least, clearly, and i think i have been able to remember since then.
Anyway...i asked him about it the next day because he'd said some things to imply that it definitely was not the first time that had happened. i asked what he meant and how long i'd been doing that for. Several years...at that point. my next question was why he'd never brought it up. Apparently, he thought i was remembering at least some of it and just not wanting to talk about it - i wasn't. Also, that it was never a problem so he didn't worry about it and figured when i was ready i'd talk to him about it. Well...right then, it was a problem for me...talk about feeling insane...
i don't know what i did when i'd go into my episodes. He could tell me, but i never asked and not sure i ever will. At the time, i didn't want to know. i started remembering when i'd feel little, but for a long time - when i'd pull out of it, i'd push it aside. i didn't want to deal with it or face it.
Now, however i am trying to. i was seeing a counselor. i talked to her about it. She said she thought that maybe it started out as just a coping thing and may have initially been related to things in my childhood and my initial slave training (very knowledgeable in bdsm...awesome counselor), but that now it is kinda integrated into me more. She said she doesn't think i'm crazy.
Master, or should i say Daddy for this, lol...my current that is..tells me i shouldn't fight it but should embrace it. He doesn't think i'm crazy either and has been supportive. At least, disregarding right now, which i'll get to in a minute. i think i'm crazy still...but...i am trying to accept it, deal with it, let it in when i need to because this has been going on now for what? oh...about 18 years or so...here and there...and is getting more pronounced. It is, as my counselor said, really a part of me now and fighting it is about pointless.
Daddy had me coloring or reading, or doing something "little" before i went to bed to try and help me understand and accept my little side. When W/we started having problems some months back, i stopped doing that. i am trying to get back to it now though because it was helping a lot, and he'd probably still want me to though...
In the last few weeks, he hasn't been able to be there for me. It may be like that for a while. The slave in me alone is having a hard time with that. The little in me, even more so, i think.
Typically, i really only regress once in a while. It may be once a week, once every two weeks, once in a month...but for the last week..it's been almost daily, and so much so that it's interfering with things i need to do. i can't talk to Daddy right now and it's killing me, but i am trying to be strong and have decided that this is something i have got to tackle and deal with.
i've been in some little's groups on fet for a good while now, and that helps too, but i feel like i have to watch it on there because i worry that i'll embarrass him or something. That, and well...when i am really in "little mode", i don't go to fet. i play and watch cartoons, and draw and stuff :)
Back to my problem though - usually, once i do something my "little" likes, i will snap out of it and i'm back to just being "me". Saturday was horrible though, it was almost all day. Yesterday - about the same. So, i have decided that i am going to feed the little in me a little more and see if it helps any. What "she" really wants, and what i really want is Daddy, but...i have to try to do as best i can on my own right now and be strong.
i got some ideas from the little's groups to help with self exploration. Things like scrap booking, making pictures, doing crafts, etc, writing stories, or writing about things i like (as a little). i think i am going to start doing more of those things, and i've created another blog that i'm going to use as kind of an online scrapbook. Also, in one of the groups we are going to start doing some projects that i've joined in on, where you have to post pictures of things you do. And...i guess due to my shyness and other things mentioned above...i'd rather have somewhere besides fet to post those things.
i'll put the link here (nothing on it yet though), but if you run across this and visit me there...just please be nice as this is really something i still struggle with. Oh...by the way...my "little's" name is amby, and she's usually around 7. Again...this isn't age play...just me acting like a kid sometimes. amby is not into all that "grown up" stuff...just to um...be clear ;)
Anyway....... http://lildixiekitten.blogspot.com
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